In the past couple of years I have been experiencing progressive hearing loss. I am not unfamiliar with the issues of being deaf, as my grandparents were both deaf and raised my mother and her two sisters. Until I experienced hearing loss first hand,however, I never realized what a life-changing experience it is. People ask me questions or say hello and think I am ignoring them, when in fact, I just didn’t hear them. I often times miss out on so many conversations or presentations because of the simple fact that I cannot hear them. I have gotten hearing aids, and they definitely help with hearing people one-on-one and hearing in small groups. I no longer have to have the television on so loud that the neighbor down the street has to listen to it. And I can actually hear my doorbell ring, But hearing aids also make it almost impossible to stand being in a large group of people for any length of time. They pick up background noises and every single conversation so you can’t hear the person talking to you. Those people often get annoyed when you can’t hear them. “Turn up your hearing aids!” I am trying to learn how to “hear” people without actually hearing their words. I am concentrating more on their expressions, trying to read their lips and actually saying “what” even though they get annoyed. lol
Fortunately, we don’t need our ears to hear God. He finds ways to communicate with us that are so very perfect. So when we say, “listen for Him to speak to you” or “listen for what His dream is for you” it doesn’t matter if our ears aren’t functioning too well. What matters is, are we listening with our hearts, watching what He is doing around us, and understanding His language. I know he has a dream for all of us,
I have a song that comes to mind each and every time I get frustrated and too busy and it has helped bring me back to where I want to be:
“I want to sit at Your feet, drink from the cup in Your hand
Lay back against You and breath and feel Your heart beat.
Your love is so deep, it’s more than I can stand
I melt in Your peace, it’s overwhelming.”
Draw closer to Jesus, lean against His strength, and He will show you where He wants you to follow.